Friends or family?

If god were to give me 2nd live, i dont think i would even accept it. C'mon, living on this earth is such bullshit. But i knew i have friends who can turn my life back. Mom and Dad nowadays fight. And it always starts with me. Freaking pekchek. If i could turn back time and goin down the memories they spent with me, how glad would it be. Dad shouts at Mom and Mom shouts at Dad. And i shouted back. Nb, if you think is funny. Fuck off. This is my family problem. If you like this type of problem. I'll give you my blessing. Sometymes, i wanna just leave the house and stay far away where nobody would have quarrels. I want a peaceful area. A place where only i can hear myself shouting. We used to have family outing reguarly, and wtf happend now? Happy? Dad's has been coming home late always on fridays to have his drink. As you know readers, i dont have a maid lerh. Maybe some of you might not know yet. And my freaking Dad wont help the chores! It makes me irritated. Today after mom and dad quarrelled, i hide in my room. I look up at the sky pleading god to give me a happy famil but not quarrels every single day. I plead god to let me stay anti stress. I plead god to let me be a good girl. And of course, i pleaded god to let me change. I helped mom in whatever i could and all she say is only, "you are not even participating" When she's driving and talking over the phone with no earpiece, she almost knock till people's car. All she wanted is to caused trouble. I hate it when she say its my fault when i yelled at her when she ALMOST hit the car infront of us. Fine, next tyme, I WILL NT YELL AT HER. She bang till people's car, none of fucking buiness anymore. And you said this to me:" for the pat 14 years, i gave birth to you was just to take revenge on me" C'mon, did i? I hate it. I cried endlessly. I hat this nightmare. God, now i wanna plead you again, may you please stop my nightmare? Amen.

God asked me one day,

friends or family?

And i replied friend and i realised i was wrong.

Now ask me again, friends or family,

and ill tell you,

I dont know. I give up.